#And still lots of effort clearly put in like AAAH sorry it's just. Fun.

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Yes I did buy the Biblical Christmas musical movie.

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HLITF: This is not the story of your first night: Soma - otona love - chapter 6 summary/translation

i can’t believe we are at chapter 6 (i.e. the last chapter) of this story already... i don’t want it to be over! man, i thought that the last chapter was super hot but this one blows it out of the water. you can find the previous chapter here, or check my new translations page to read from the beginning. 

to recap, in the previous chapter you and soma had started having hot but gentle sex, and you realise that it’s nice but there’s something missing. he’s holding back and you want him to let go and drown in those powerful waves that only he can create, and you want to see his satisfied gaze on you as you drown. so even though you’re feeling really good, you decide to take the plunge and tell him “you’re not the usual mean soma...”

soma: “...you’re good at turning me on”

note that he stopped using keigo/polite language here?! i’m sure you all know this bc i won’t stop going on about it but i LOVE when his tone changes. 

soma’s eyes, looking down at you, shine brightly. 

soma: “...is it okay? to do it as usual”

“...yes”

with a mean smile that slightly lifted only one cheek [i.e. a smirk lol], he jerks his head in a nod. you second guess yourself, wondering if it’s really gonna be okay...[that he’s going to be his usual self]? and then he says

soma: “it’s too late to regret it”

“he’s read my mind again...” you think. 

soma: “because you’re the one who wished for this”

ALSKDJF;LASJFDLFKDJL!!!!!! the return of mean soma has my heart RACING!!!! this is what i’ve been waiting so long to see omg.

anyway, our mc clearly thinks the same thing. your heartbeat suddenly rises due to the mean words and smile that are emitted one after the other. 

soma: “such a happy face”

“he grins, and starts moving slowly inside me again.”

you gasp softly, and this incredibly outrageous man says:

soma: “what’s wrong? you don’t have to hold back/be patient”

“[about having] patience...” you say, and he says:

soma: “there’s no reason not to, since it’s what you wished for”

saying it again just in case, he gradually thrusts into your depths. 

this man is having so much fun with this haha i missed this so much!! also i just have to say i’m swooning that he still calls you kijo in bed. 

soma: “to this extent?”*

*he’s basically asking you to tell him how deep inside you want him lmao.

“nn,” you whine and he says:

soma: “you usually/always tighten more strongly”

you’re assailed by a vibration on top of a noticeably stronger pleasant sensation, and [his?] body is suddenly filled with energy. “that’s right... that feeling... can you handle it?” he asks. you moan, and he says

soma: “don’t hold your voice [moans] back”

his lips, which were by your ears, move to the tip of your chest. you think he’s going to eat you softly, but he nibbles you lightly with his incisors and then licks it with the tip of his tongue. 

soma: “it became pert in no time, how cute”

“ahh, ahh ... so... ma... san...”

i normally cut out all the moans in my recaps cause there are a lot of “nn”s and “aah”s but she said his name like this so i had to put in a screenshot. 

soma: “cry out more with that sweet voice”

you: “aaahh...”

soma: “more”

you: “nn!”

i’m getting some phantom of the opera/christine vibes here. 

while he penetrates you to the core of your body, he plays with your tip of your chest and then he reaches your most sensitive secret part.

soma: “do you want to be touched here while being rocked**?”

**he’s basically asking you if you want him to touch you ~there~ while he’s fucking you

soma: “you have to tell me if you want me to touch you”

you think that even if you don’t say it, he [already] knows [that you want it]. feeling the presence of his fingertips that are almost but not quite touching your ~ripe~ nipples***, you want, you crave, that stimulation so badly that you can’t bear it.  

***塾れた小粒 : i think that’s what this is supposed to mean lol, i had to go on an AV site to verify, hope you appreciate my efforts

soma: “what will it be...?”

“[your] touch, i want it...”

he calls your name with that smile of his and you say:

“...touch me... please...”

the moment you open your mouth slightly,

“aaah, ah, aaahhhh...!” (this is the stuff i usually cut out but i just have to show you how much she’s enjoying this)

the long-awaited stimulation runs through you like an electric current, and your trembling body becomes [tightly strung] like a bow. with his fingertips, he gently strokes your nipples that are becoming too sensitive. you’re devoured by the heat of soma, who has boundless stamina, inside you. 

soma: “is it that good?”

“it’s good, it’s so good ... it’s amazing, it feels so good...”

“but i can’t... i feel like i’m going crazy...!”

soma: “you’re really an honest person, both your heart and your body���

he tells you you’re drooling so indecently (lmao!!!). soma shows you his moist fingers that continue to stimulate you carefully. you feel strangely relieved at seeing his satisfied smile. 

“even though i think he’s so mean... even though i’m so embarrased... i’m kind of happy”

you feel more certain/secure, in both your heart and your body. 

soma: “i can’t bear it/i can’t help it”

you’re surprised by his suddenly gently narrowed eyes. 

soma: ���from now on, my words, the feelings in my body...” (not really sure what he’s saying here)

you moan some more.

soma: “that face... show me more...”

soma: “that ... cute face ... [that you have] when you feel me with your whole body...”

(his words are kind of broken up/choppier here because of you know why ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) )

“soma-san is also feeling...”

[the fact that he’s also feeling really good] is transmitted to you by the fact that his voice is laboured with his breathing. 

you moan his name, he moans yours.

i just had to include this bc you know my policy about blushing soma. also sorry my name here is still "you” lol, he says your name if you input it.

“ahh, aaahh, so...ma... san....!”

“the two of us finish at the same time, calling each other’s names.”

there’s a quick fade, and then soma says:

soma: “did your wish come true?”

when both of your panting finally slows down, soma lends you his arm as a pillow and smiles. 

“i’m super satisfied... is what i’d like to say, but it’s embarrassing after all”

you start to say something, but then soma says:

soma: “i can tell even if you don’t say anything just by looking at those cheeks”

red as they may be, soma gently pokes your cheeks with his fingers ... they’re definitely a little warm, but it’s more that he can see through anything (as in, that he can read you so well). 

soma: “i’m also extremely satisfied... both my body and my heart”

“then i’m glad,” you say. 

soma: “above all, satisfying you is what makes me happiest”

“it seems like... it’s thanks to/because of your words”

soma: “the kotobazeme**** ban is lifted, isn’t it”

****kotobazeme = verbal attack/abuse/humiliation. i guess you could call it dirty talk in the context of bedroom activities but it’s more actively malicious like you actively want to embarrass your partner. hope you know what this means by now since that’s what this entire story has been about lol and if not, please give it a google

“if you say it so happily...”

“but you weren’t so mean at the beginning [when we first started sleeping together], right?”

“...is that so?” soma says. 

soma: “then maybe you did this to me”

“is it my fault!?” you ask. 

soma watches you with enjoyment as you were unexpectedly falsely accused*****.

***** 濡れ衣を着せる is like an idiom which literally means wearing wet clothes but idiomatically means being framed or falsely accused. 

a few days later... after finishing the investigation and returning to headquarters, you see soma and kurosawa talking quietly. kurosawa is saying he saw the whole story with his own eyes. you wonder what they’re talking about.  

kurosawa: “just bind their hands and put on a blindfold and they’ll become obedient”

you wonder if they’re talking about criminal restraint techniques? 

kurosawa says that then all you need to do is hurl words at them. 

“words, huh?” comments soma (sounds like his interest is piqued because words are his weapon of choice lmao i’m screaming)

kurosawa says that’s right, as obscene as possible, to stir them up, using a voice that makes them sweat slowly...

“i see,” says soma. 

kurosawa says they can use just words without even lifting a finger, isn’t that sugoi!? soma replies that if it comes to matters that happen between bar counters, it’s certainly amazing. 

“they’re talking about kotobazeme at SM bars!?”

 then kurosawa notices you and exclaims “you’re back!” soma, turning around, says okaerinasai and approaches you with a smiling face. 

soma: “i was listening to a useful story... for future reference”

(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

the last part is whispered in your ear and your heart leaps. “even if you don’t learn it, it’s still enough!!!” you think (basically meaning that the current level of your sexual activities is plenty good enough without adding in extra techniques learnt at SM bars). the pressure in his smiling face is too much. 

soma: “shall we tie you up next time? or have you blindfolded -”

SLKFJSLKJSDLKD SORRY I KEEP DOING THIS BUT i just want to say that an anon once asked me back in august 2019 which instructor i thought would be into shibari and i said soma and i’m glad to be proven right yet again lmao. 

“IT’S OKAY!!”

soma chuckles and says “i understand”. 

even though you refused with all your might, you still got excited after all. 

“with his enigmatic and mean words, and that ridiculously sexy smile-”

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and it just ends like that?! WHAT?!!! how can they end it like this! could there be more chapters to come? even goto and kaga only have 6 chapters for this story so maybe that really is the end of it? 

anyway, i can’t believe how incredibly hot this chapter was, to finally see soma unleashed in bed in canon (and not just my own fanfic lol, seeing as i’m the only person who ever writes soma fanfic). i just adore how mean he is and how much he loves teasing you and i feel very satisfied feeling like i got his character in bed spot on when i wrote that delayed gratification fic haha. dirty talk/kotobazeme soma is my absolute favourite. but i also find it incredibly sweet that he tried to turn it down and be super sweet and gentle just for his mc, and the fact that both of them feel the happiest when the other is fully satisfied. i’d love to read a his pov version of this story as well... 

thanks for joining me on this ride! i hope you enjoyed this (final?) chapter and the whole story as much as i did.

i’ve also set up a ko-fi page here and would be incredibly grateful if you would like to support me for translations and being able to purchase more routes to recap in english!

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BTS WINGS TOUR JAKARTA FANACCOUNT

I’m sorry for neglecting my page for so long but this time I want to share this because I'm so happy that I want to write it all so I don't forget x'D I probably miss a lot of things, so there might be different things happening than those that are recorded and posted on net. I can't remember all, but ALL THE EFFORT I PUT. ALL THE THINGS. IT'S ALL WORTH IT. NOTHING IS WASTED. IF THEY MAKE A CONCERT AGAIN, I WILL DEFINITELY WATCH IT.

Okay, so first I'm gonna call out on the promotor. They're kinda shitty :( A lot of mistakes and a lot of unclear things happened :( I hate that they don't even clear up the lining. We ARMYs are neat and civil but they kept telling us to stop pushing and running but there's actually no clear information from the start :"( A lot of (almost all) of the ARMYs were disappointed with the promotor's service.

BUT AT LEAST THE CONCERT WAS WORTH IT.

I came with my friend and we both got Sound Check benefit. IT WAS GREAT. AWESOME. MAGNIFICENT.

Imagine a place that can hold 15.000 people. In a section where there should be 3.000 people. Only 500 was selected. Only about 450 got in (poor 50 people :"( blame the promotor). IT FEELS LIKE AN EXCLUSIVE CONCERT. They were all very relaxed. And actually they seemed kinda tired but they still smiled for us :")

The moment we got in, we're greeted with someone saying "Selamat siang, tidak usah dorong-dorong ya," [Good afternoon, please don't push each other, okay? --- in Bahasa Indonesia]. I thought they must have brought a translator, but it turned out that NAMJOON was the one saying that. Let me tell you that the sentence wasn't something you pick from a book. It's conversational language. THEY MUST HAVE REALLY STUDIED INSTEAD OF JUST GOOGLED OMG I LOOOOOVE THEM SO MUCH. 

THEY WERE ALL BAREFACED, IN CASUAL CLOTHING, AND WERE COMPLETELY STUNNING. OMG. YOONGI EVEN LOOKED SLEEPY AF AND TAEHYUNG WORE HIS USUAL LOOSE OUTFIT BUT THEY ALL LOOK SO DAMN H A N D S O M E .

The camera catch them close up and their bareface wasn't smooth x'D They have acnes and such but they're STILL BEAUTIFUL WTF AAAH. I CANT WITH THEM. But there's strictly no camera allowed at the soundcheck so you probably can't find the footage everywhere :") 

Tbh it made it feel so much more special because ONLY US got to see them like that x'D GOSH IT'S WORTH IT.

Jimin wore sunglasses and I wanted to laugh so much because he looked so ridiculous bc the venue was very dark and he wore sunglasses like why bro x"D I know he was probably insecure about his bareface but still, it looked funny to us because the sunglass was very big and square that it's flooding his face x'D he looks cute tho.

Then some of them started talking in Korean. The mic wasn't that loud yet that time, so between the screams we couldn't really hear what they were saying. (I couldn't catch anything) But they murmured things here and there. And since none of us understood, we just kept screaming x'D

They played Baepsae first. They just stood and walked around without dancing it xD They went around everywhere and say told us to sing. I really liked it. The fans were SO HYPE. They kept NOT SINGING AND GAVE US THE MIC AHAHAHAH. Taehyung gave us the mic and HIS EXPRESSION when we sang along was sooooooo proud and smug like "Oh yeah, that's my ARMY~" OMG I'M SO PROUD TO BE AN ARMY. 

Then they got to Dope, and they still didn't dance. xD Jin moved as if he wanted to dance but the others didn't so he just fidgeted around SO CUTEEEE.

DOPE WAS DOPE AF WHEN HEARD LIVE. JUNGKOOK'S VOICE WAS SO AMAZING. I CAN'T.  

But they were worse than when in Baepsae x"D They didn't even sing that much because they kept telling us to do it. And daaaaaamn they were so happy we did. Gosh it's the best thing <3

And then they performed 21st Century Girl. This time they danced it. XDDD I really liked it, they clearly told us to have fun and WE DID. The song was really fun to scream into and THEIR DANCE IS EVEN MORE PROMINENT LIVE. I got to see Taehyung's dance style and it's true that he really does dance ANYWAY HE WANTS. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OMG. 

In between the songs, the members talked Korean in which we didn't understand. We kinda hoped Namjoon would translate but he was blissfully ignoring the others like okay mon, okay :") We only understand when Hoseok said "Next song~!" to indicate the next song :") 

I HOPE I UNDERSTAND KOREAN GOSH

After 21st Century Girl, Hoseok told us, "See you next song," but then they left and we were ushered outside :") such a tease. I forgot when in the checksound this happened but.

TAEHYUNG NOTICED ME. He went to the side stage and crouched, and then SMILED THEN CLOSED ONE EYE AND SHOOT A FINGER GUN TO US OMG. I'M DEAD. MY BIAS NOTICED ME MY LIFE IS COMPLETE. 

Jimin also teased us. He crouched and pushed down his sunglass a bit and WINKED AT US HOW DARE HIM. BLESS HIS PURE SOUL. Jungkook played around and bouncing all the time omg such bunny. Seokjin and Hoseok played around with each other A LOT X'D it was really cute. Seokjin even MADE POUTY-KISSY FACE in which the others made fun of but he was like "Whatever imma do what I like" X'DDD

Yoongi was so inactive, like he was still sleeping and would appreciate it if he could be back asleep lol THE LAZY IS REAL. Namjoon was being really chill too but he was smiling a lot and HIS DIMPLE OMG IT'S EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL REAL LIFE AAAH.

Okay the soundcheck part is ending. Then we had to wait outside while they rehearse and practice again :") We literally could hear the music from outside and their voice when they were training. Such hardworker, such love put for us :") They practiced Cypher pt 4 a lot. Like a looooot. Since we first waited, they only practice other song for like once or twice on some song but they practiced Cypher pt 4 for like 5 times :") I'm so touched the rapline were working so hard for us.

Okay skip to the actual venue.

We got in at about 18.00 and they played the MV on big screens but in low voice xD We sang and chanted to it anyways because by now the ARMYs remembered the MV by heart so they all know when to sing what even when it wasn't audible lol. Then it switched to black and we all got impatient xDDD Then it went into safety explanation. I was so impressed that the ARMYs generally stayed quiet and paid attention, despite being so hyped just a moment earlier :") ARMYs are so good mannered I love them <3

After that Indonesia's National Anthem was playing. We all stood still and sang it even though no one told us to. X'D I was so impressed by this OMG. I secretly hoped that Bangtan would hear that and be proud that we sang it so beautifully :") I hope they came to know our national anthem as well.

THEN THE VCR VIDEO. I got all the videos jumbled so I didn't really remember but all the VCRs are about all the stories before Spring Day. On one moment it showed Seokjin holding a video camcorder, recording 7 bangtan lined up, but then zooming in to Jungkook close up in the middle, but when it zoomed out JUNGKOOK WAS ALONE QAQ It's like RUN but they were all just standing instead of partying and it was clear that JIN was the one recording them. What is this mystery again omg. They really liked to make us confused. At almost the end of the video, I could see the sillhouette of the members standing in white outfits and I screamed like "BANGTAN IS THERE!!!" and I think everybody realized and started screaming as well. xD

The first song was NOT TODAY and it was literally ON FIRE. They put on fire at the front stage and IT WAS REALLY HOT. I stood so close to the stage that I could feel the incredible heat OMG IT MADE THEIR STAGE FELT EVEN HOTTER. It was fun, we screamed along to "TODAY WE FIGHT" and I think they didn't expect it x'D

Then they played the same song as the rehearshal (Baepsae, Dope, 21st Century Girl). But this time they danced it all xD They looked SO COOL AND THEIR VOIZ DAYUM OMG OMG AND THEIR SWEAT AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH I COULD SEE THEIR SWEAT IN HIGH DEFINITION OMG IT'S A BLESSING.

Then at some point they stopped and greeted us xD

I forgot the order, but they all introduced themselves IN BAHASA INDONESIA. OMG. It was just "Halo," and their usual greetings but it was very sweet x'D As I said, they must have REALLY STUDIED because their language wasn't stiff, it's really almost slang, to be honest xD The last one to introduce was Hoseok, and he said, "Harapan, J-Hope" [Hope, J-Hope, it doesn't sound special in English but the way he pronounced it, the way he even KNOWS the word, that was so sweet and we SCREAMED SO MUCH] x'D

Then they performed Am I Wrong. And I forgot the rest and probably got the order mixed up but then they moved to the next stage performance. NEXT WAS SOLO PERFORMANCE. 

VCR was shown before, but I couldn't remember much x'D The first to go was Jungkook. We all expected it since Begin was the first line up of the solo stage. He sang it in jazz-style, with beautiful dance and sparkly suit. He's so cool. I can see for myself his determination to be number one, his full intention towards making the song perfect. The backup dancers are cool too, and the stage was emotional it was beautiful :")

Next up is Lie, Jimin. We screamed so much when we realized the song. There is actually a beautiful transition between all the solos, but I kinda forget what this one was x'D I guess it was a little VCR and just getting the backup dancer ready. I know Jimin said he couldn't have sing this in live because the note is too high and the dance is difficult. Let me tell you that IT'S ALL LIE. Jimin SANG AND DANCED so BEAUTIFULLY. I mean it. His voice was like flowing water, so emotional and heartwrenching, and his dance was LIKE AIR ITSELF. It's really really really beautiful. He didn't sing the 'caught in a lie' part but he sang everything else and if anyone ever accuse him of lipsync FIGHT ME HIS VOIZ IS SERIOUSLY LIT. The backup dancer created echo around him and making the performance grand :") Then there's a moment where he PUT ON A BLINDFOLD AND CONTINUED DANCING OMG. We screamed so much because lfkasjdlfakjsldkfj reference to BST adkfjalksjdf. And then he removed it again but then he was being LIFTED while there was a CANDELABRA GOING DOWN OMG I swear Jimin is so extra. The stage ended soon after but it was really beautiful reallllly.

The next one is VCR and melody about Suga. It's like all of his best scene in previous videos, compiled. It's really emotional and aesthetic, moreover when we see that there's scenes of Yoongi playing piano with metronome on top of it, slipped in between his best scenes. The metronome remind me so much of Rap Monster's solo mixtape, Do You. And it was emphasized as the Yoongi scene ended, the metronome got bigger and became animated, playing as the back ground over and over. Then the violinist that had previously prepared themselves there got spotlight, and Yoongi appeared from the middle WITH A PIANO. It's a beautiful piano, brown and tiny, like the one he played in the video, like the description he got in the song, like the one he got his first love with :") He didn't play it and didn't even stay on the seat for long, but it's seriously so emotional and aesthetic. It's so heavy with story and emotion that I was almost suffocated. Suga is so INTENSE I can't.

After being heavy with Yoongi, the song switched to VCR of psychedelic butterfly. To be honest I think Hoseok's story is the most painful ones. The VCR showed distorted butterfly with a lot of changes, then J-hope in butterfly wings, which got distorted and broken. Then J-hope in short film setting, with brick wall behind him and a lot of "placebo" appearing and disappearing behind him. Okay so I CHECKED. There's a reason I used PSYCHEDELIC and the word PLACEBO appeared. Psychedelic means "Of, containing, generating, or reminiscent of drug-induced hallucination, distortions of perception, altered awareness, etc; (of graphics, etc) Having bright colours, abstract shapes, etc." and Placebo means "(medicine) a dummy medicine containing no active ingredients; an inert treatment" and additionally, Placebo Effect means "(pharmacology) The tendency of any medication or treatment, even an inert or ineffective one, to exhibit results simply because the recipient believes that it will work."

THIS IS A BIG REVELATION. Because we know that since I NEED U, J-Hope was so close to drugs. But the words PLACEBO itself just appeared on WINGS TOUR (or I’m the only one being left behind lol). IMAGINE THE SIGNIFICANCE. ALL THE MEDICINE HE TOOK. ALL THE THINGS THAT HE THOUGHT MADE HIM CRAZY UNTIL HE EXPERIENCED THE PSYCHEDELIC IN SHORT FILM AND BLOOD SWEAT TEARS. THOSE ALL ARE INERT TREATMENT. THOSE DON'T ACTUALLY HAVE ANY EFFECT AT ALL. HE JUST BELIEVES THAT IT WORKS AND IT aCTUALLY WORKS. IMAGINE HOW FUCKED UP AND TWISTED THAT WAS.

IRONICALLY, his song is Mama, a serenade song for his mom who have raised him to be the Hoseok he is now. Isn't it strange? Of all the solos, Yoongi's and Hoseok's are probably the only two that got the least relevance to the story BUT. WHAT IF his mom itself is an illusion. What if all of his happy memory is just an illusion? JUST AN ALTERED PERCEPTION?? Isn't it strange that J-hope's the only one with cheery-themed song? The only thing I can imagine is that he's HIGH.

Okay so I didn't think about this at the concert lol. I just got the word placebo on my mind and looked it up when the concert was over. IT BLEW MY MIND :") His stage itself is AMAZING. It started with the dancers appearing on the center stage. They played around as if saying, "Where is Hoseok? Where will he appear?" It was cute af and adorable, and then suddenly Hoseok appeared between the dancers, and they placed white jacket and white cap to him xD it was cute. The performance is full of cheerful dance, and it's soooo cute, just as expected of J-hope. And while he danced, the screen portrayed his YOUNGER PICTURE. FROM HIS NEWBORN PHOTOS TO SCENES OF PREDEBUT JHOPE TO HIM UNTIL NOW. It was touching, and at some point he removed the white jacket to reveal sparkly jacket inside. It's cute, really, like he really wanted to put on a show. xD I really like it tbh. 

When the performance ends, Lost started. The four vocals appeared in the center stage with casual red and white outfit combination. Lost was beautiful, I still prefer they sang House of Cards but honestly Lost is beautiful too :”) 

Then they sang SAVE ME. There was a project that was distributed before the concert. It is to hold out a handbanner with part of SAVE ME lyrics, "In this pitch black darkness, you still shine this much" during SAVE ME. I was so proud that all the ARMYs did it very beautifully. That moment, I really think that all ARMYs are family, and that we really want to make Bangtan happy :") Because of the banner, I couldn't see much, but I knew the members were kind of distraught and touched. They were distracted when singing and dancing, and from my spot, I could even see Jimin looking at us (ME!!!! XD) holding our banner and covering his mouth, like he wanted to cry but couldn't. All the members looked around to see us all really holding the banner, it was so sweet :")

I forgot if they said something directly after the song, but I think they didn't. The song continued into medley of N.O, No More Dream, Boy in Luv, Danger, and RUN. Then, they performed I NEED U. In the medley, the members run around so much and we all sang and had fun xD

Then it's back to solo songs. There's VCR about Rap Monster, and the interesting thing is, aside than him between glasses and reflection, is the visual of him approached by whale, which is WHALIEN 52. GOSH WHAT IS THIS AGAIN. DOES THIS MEAN THAT NAMJOON'S ISSUE IS LONELINESS??? There were a lot of props going around, and there was three section of stage being lifted, with the rightmost containing a phone box littered with writings. I suspect it's either quotes from Catcher in the Rye or Demian, or even their own translated lyrics. It's beautiful, Namjoon appearing with the background screen showing night stars, so beautiful. His outfit is simple patterned white shirt and loose-taehyung style black pants x'D In Indonesia, his style is so similar with "remaja masjid" (mosque youth), so my friend and I got hysterical for awhile because he looked SO HANDSOME IN IT. In the instrumental interlude, we chanted "Kim Namjoon! Kim Namjoon! Kim Namjoon!" over and over and I swear I saw his expression was so at peace :") Namjoon is one of the member that receive fewer love than he deserved so I was SO PROUD that ARMYs show them that much love. Then, when Namjoon sang "I wish I could love myself" we all sang, "WE LOVE YOU", and at that moment I really wanna cry, it was so touching :") I think Namjoon wanted to cry too but he didn't, he finished the song and ENTERED THE PHONEBOOTH....

ONLY FOR THE UPLIFTED STAGE TO SHOW VANDALIZED ROLLING DOOR AND TAEHYUNG SINGING FROM INSIDE THE PHONEBOOTH. This once again emphasize the significance of Namjoon, Taehyung, and the phonebooth that connected them. There is no "Liar" writings like in the short film, but seriously, Bangtan's theory fucked me up. 

Taehyung sang STIGMA so beautifully. It was so. BEAUTIFUL. I mean. His voice. I can't. It's so emotional live. IT'S SO DAMN SOULFUL I GOT MY SOUL SUCKED OKAY. I LITERALLY STOPPED SWINING MY ARMY BOMB AND JUST STARED AT HIM FOR THE DURATION OF THE SONG. Then he came out of the phone booth, down, towards the center AND SANG HIS HEART OUT. He's so concentrated I really love him so much :") Everytime the monologue appeared we SCREAMED SO MUCH OMG HE'S SO SEXY There's a stand mic appearing and he put the mic there and continued singing until the end. HIS HAND IS LITERAL SEXINESS OMG. But then a stupid thing happened x'D He came forward, leaving the stand mic in favor of stage gimmick, and went back, but then he HIT THE STAND MIC OMG TAE :") I CAN'T WITH YOU. But then he just acted like there was nothing happening and stayed cool, like, okay, bruh, scool x'D

Then the violinist came up again, and the phonebooth was removed. The stage came a little up, and I think there was VCR but I forgot. Then Seokjin came forward with AWAKE. It was beautiful. When he entered the chorus, there is five parts of the stage, with him in the middle being the lowest, while the others beside him rose higher, forming a wing, with the background screen as feathers and sky :") It's like a representation of flying, that even if he says he can't fly for real, but he flied in the stage, he's floating, he had wings :") It's probably also a satire to his song's implication, that he himself doesn't rise, but he let the others beside him rise up :"))) He's so sweet. I can't. AND HE'S SO HANDSOME OKAY ALSDKFJLAKSJDF

Then the rapper line came up with Cypher pt 4. It's really cool if not for the outfit x'D Namjoon wore sunglasses that really made him look like a lame nerd and he looked hilarious af. All of them wore thick colored oversized robe and Suga's was so large that it looked like pajamas x'D He looked like he was about to sleep here and there. But then at the chorus he SPRAYED OFF WATER TO US ALSKDJFLAWLKLSJRIU I GOT SUGA'S HOLY WATER OMG I'M BLESSED LAKJSDLFKJALSKDJF THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE. Okay I didn't get it, the water just reached the ones at the frontmost and I got back for better viewing pleasure but still x"D

Then VCR again. I think I omit a lot of things but okay x"D This VCR is the most beautiful thing here. Let me tell you. It is scenes of all the videos before but with proper storytelling and NARRATION. IN INDONESIAN. THE LANGUAGE IS BEAUTIFUL. LIKE. I AM SURE THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY TRANSLATED FROM KOREAN BUT IT'S SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL. TOP NOTCH TRANSLATION. 

My friend recorded the whole thing and I'll put what I can get here :")

Sekolah, rumah, jalan kecil, lautan Menutup langit masa muda, sia-sia Jalan buntu ini jalan masuk ke jalur berliku Bagai stigmata berlumur darah, di telapak tangan Sakit yang menusuk merambah sayap yang membentang Mimpi yang menjulang tinggi Mencari lautan yang tak kunjung ditemukan Sang anak berjalan Sang anak dengan bukan satu tapi tujuh jantung Tujuh detak dan Satu langkah ke depan Perspektif baru dan Satu adalah Tujuh Berlari akan terjatuh Menantang tebing Di dunia yang penuh rayuan Apa yang dicari dengan mata tertutup? Ketika tirai terbuka untuk memecahkan cermin Munculkan jalan setapak menuju serpihan Luar ke Dalam, Dalam ke Luar Dunia bertautan Persimpangan jalan untuk semua Dua dunia satu di balik yang lainnya Tanpa henti menyatu menjadi satu Kini Tujuh anak lelaki di perjalanan Tujuh, tapi Satu Tujuh anak lelaki dengan Satu jantung Satu anak lelaki dengan Tujuh jantung Satu dan Tujuh, refleksi satu dengan lainnya Berapa banyak jalan harus dilalui sebelum anak lelaki menjadi dewasa Jalan adalah nama lain untuk dunia Siang dan malam, persimpangan jalan dan terowongan Jalan dengan persimpangan tanpa akhir Dan selalu sendiri saat mengambil keputusan Berbelok di pojok Dan apakah bunga merah masa muda masih merekah? Kemana mimpi ini melangkah? Ketakutan adalah nama lain untuk harapan Air mata adalah cara lain untuk tersenyum Sang anak lelaki tersenyum Dia bisa tersenyum bila dia utuh satu Sang anak lelaki terus berjalan

School, home, narrow street, sea Covering the young sky, in vain This dead end is an entryway to sinuous road Like the bloody stigma on your palm The piercing pain reaching your stretched wings Dreams rising high up Looking for a sea that can't be found The boy walks The boy with not one but seven hearts Seven beats and One step forward New perspective and One is Seven Running will get you hurt Againts the valley In the world full of temptation What will you find with closed eyes? When the curtain opens to crash the mirror Outside In, Inside Out The world coincides Intersection to all Two worlds one aside the other Keep colliding into one Now Seven boys is on their way Seven, but One Seven boys with One heart One boy with Seven hearts One and Seven, reflection of each other How much path should be passed before the boy can mature Road is another name for world Day and night, intersection and tunnel Road with a neverending intersection And always alone when you have to decide Crossing the corner And does this red flower of youth still bloom? Where does this dream lead to? Fear is another name for hope Tears is another way to smile The boy smiles He can smile if he's whole The boy keeps walking

(original Indonesian that I saw at the concert and rough translation that you probably will get when the DVD is released)

GOSH THIS EXPLAINS A LOT. alkdjflaksjdlkfjalskdjf seriously I wanted to cry. I know the tour VCR is made BEFORE Spring Day was out and ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL THAT THE LAST SENTENCE IS "The boy keeps walking" and the title of the next album is YOU NEVER WALK ALONE. It's so aflksjdlfkajlskdjf alksdj bangtaniswear.

Then they performed Outro: Wings. We're still in shock and in emotional roller coaster so we weren't as loud but we still screamed from the top of our lung :") At the instrumental break of the song, J-Hope told the members to dance x'D I didn't remember all but they either did sexy dance or ridiculous dance. Suga did his grandfather dance and Jin attempted proper dance (he didn't look like a disaster live HAHAHAHHA).

Then it's talk time. THEY ALL SPEAK IN INDONESIA LAKSDJFLAKJSDF I CAN'T. IT'S NOT EVEN FORMAL INDONESIA OR GENERAL PHRASES. WE ALL COULD TELL THAT THEY LEARNED TO SAY WHAT THEY SAID.

Okay I forgot a lot but here's what I remember:

V: Akhirnya malam ini sudah hampir selesai. * Kalian pasti berharap malam ini tidak pernah berakhir, kan? * Aku juga!! * Apakah kalian suka (konsernya)? * Aku sukaaaa!!! * Aku cinta kalian! [Finally this night comes to an end. You must have wanted this night to never end, right? Me too!! Do you like it (the concert)? I liiiikeee it!!! I love you!] * is for ARMY’s scream lol

Jin: Aku pernah ke Sulawesi tetapi.... A: HAAA??? Jin: Tetapi Jakarta juga indah! Aku cinta Jakarta! [I've been to Sulawesi but.... but Jakarta is beautiful as well! I love Jakarta!]

Suga: Karena kalian, kita bisa menampilkan Not Today PERTAMA KALI di Wings Tour Jakarta. Ini semua berkat kalian! Mantab! [Because of you guys, we can perform Not Today for the FIRST TIME in Wings Tour Jakarta. This is all because of you guys! Great!] When he said Mantab, it actually was a slang and it's kind of appropriate translation to the phrase he likes so much, kkaepjjang x'D We were so excited he knew our slang

RapMonster: Ini adalah Episode terakhir dari Tour kita. Dari Episode II: The Red Bullet, Episode I: Begins, dan sekarang, Episode III: Wings! Kita tidak bisa melakukannya tanpa kalian! [This is the last episode of our Tour. We can't do it without you!]

I forgot what Jimin, J-hope, and Jungkook said x'D but both Jimin and J-hope said something cute and Jungkook stuttered like he didn't really memorized his part (but succeed anyways) it was so cuteee. 

Then Namjoon talked about the project, RM: Do you guys remember the small paper, the one you raise during Save Me? (he said it in English) A: YEAH! *some raised the banner JM: *sings that part i kkaman eodum sogeseo, neo neun ireohke bitnanikka A: *sings along geut soneul nae mireojwo Save Me Save Me, I need your love before I fall RM: It's very beautiful! We were very touched, it was very beautiful A: AAAAAAA RM: But sadly we've come to the last songs. (basically he praised our projects and said farewell)

Then they performed FIRE (cue real fire coming out again!!!) and then Boy Meets Evil. Boy Meets Evil was only performed for a short time, but JHope was dancing and wasn't rapping. He danced up to "too bad," and then the instrumental switched to Blood Sweat Tears and the venue EXPLODED. I think us Indonesian ARMYs still like this song SO MUCH xD They were SO SEXY LIVE ALKSDJFALKSJDF too bad Jimin didn't do his "accident" but then again they're already TOO SEXY I CAN'T. After that, they exited the stage, and the screen turned to WINGS LIVE TOUR text.

We were shouting for encore and of course, we got it after awhile xD They came out with Spring Day outfit, the oversized shirt and plain tshirt. They sang I NEED U and we all did our projects again xD The festival ones which are the nearest to the stage covered their lightstick with pink plastic bag, and the seating created the color of red and white, our national flag. We celebrated the one year anniversary of HYYH so we used pink x3 I could tell that they were touched as well x'3

And then they talked again, they basically told their farewell again and I thought they wanted to address the project but didn't know what to say (I don't think they know what it means but whatever x'D) And then they told us that it's really the last and at the end, they sang 2!3! and we all did our projects (again! We had 4 projects, honestly lol). We chanted "Saranghae!" instead of "Gwaenchana", and the real chant included sentences that answered Bangtan's doubt in that song, but we couldn't pronounce it well so I think Bangtan only recognized the "Saranghae" :"D I could tell, they were puzzled but I know they recognized the word saranghae. Then we kept singing even at the end of the song, even when the light dimmed and they got ready for Spring Day formation. I think they waited until we finished singing then started Spring Day. :")

Then they performed Spring Day, and, as per the project, we lifted up the yellow rose x'3 I didn't know what this one meant, but Bangtan was touched as well :") I think they were speechless because we did so much projects. Their expression was NO JOKE THO. Their sadness filled up the venue :") Maybe that's what the yellow roses were for.

At the end, we kept singing the uoooh oh part and that's the part when they said their goodbyes :") They went around the stages a lot, all of them. I got noticed by Jin, Rapmon, and JHope the most. During the whole concert, I got a lot of Jin blowing kisses at us and dancing in front of us; Namjoon smiling around goofily and danced too; Yoongi pushing out his mic telling us to dance; Taehyung walking around and dancing and crouching; Jimin and Jungkook just walking around and JHope TEASING US, smiling at us and winking and generally becoming a horrible human being that doesn't have mercy on our heart. At this encore JHope came SO CLOSE to where I stood and reached out to pick the banner. He picked it with SUCH GENTLE FACE I CANT. He read it, POSED IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA WITH IT, AND GAVE IT BACK OMG SUCH ANGEL. He did it again with the yellow rose I CAN'T. Jungkook picked up fans with Jin's and Jimin's derp face and put it on his shirt HAHAHAHA. He did it SO PROUDLY and he was happily jumping and showing it around LIKE A CHILD OMG THIS BUNNY. Jimin crouched down CLOSE TO US but then he was like, "Okay, I'm near, no need to push around, hello, it's okay" Taehyung went SO NEAR the camera and did aegyo and picked a box with V on it OMG this cutie x'D Namjoon picked a pink dolphin stuffed animal and happily played with it. At the end of the farewell every member had came to the stage (AND TAE NOTICED ME AGAIN MY LIFEU IS COMPLETE) and went around. When they gathered again at the stage, I saw Namjoon struggling to put the dolphin on top of his head and was so proud that he finally did it and crossed his eyes x'D it's so cute. Jin played with Jungkook's collection and blew kisses with his derp-fan-face lol. Jimin just looked 100% done with maknae like always but he played with the fan anyways lol. 

In the end, they all bowed and left the stage.

There was one more VCR, about the backstage and practice, and they are were sweet basically :")

In the end, we all went home safely, I think. My friend and I were so tired that we slept right after. We met up with our other friend at the airport and we ended up CRYING A LOT at the plane :") because of Bangtan omg. It's an emotional trainwreck, honestly.

WINGS TOUR JAKARTA IS MAGNIFICENT. GRANDIOSE. AWESOME. DEFINITELY WILL COME AGAIN TO BTS CONCERT. ALL THE MONEY I SPENT WERE WORTH IT. NOT A SINGLE MOMENT, NOT A CENT, WASTED.